Letting go is a decision and moving on is a long process | dawn913's Blog

 I finally told my father to leave me alone after much deliberation.  I took a week off work to deal with my depression.  My routines and goals that I use to keep me steady and give me a sense of purpose are no longer in place.  I feel like I'm swimming against the current and getting no where.  I've been contemplating my choice over and over again hoping I made the right decision.  I'm fight years of brainwashing and minipulation that both my father and my ex-husband have tried to put in my brain.  I know I just have to keep going.  I'm usally a fighter to the core.  I guess I just need to remember to take it one day at a time.  I have little energy let.  I hope tomorrow I can get back on track.  I've noticed the more I stay away from him the better I feel.